In good times and in bad...

No, I'm not practicing wedding vows, although, sometimes I feel like I need tangible vows to refer back to with my relationship with the Lord. Why is it that I am so quick to turn to God when things aren't going so well, but when everything seems right in my world, I seem to put Him on the back burner, feeling like I can handle things on my own? This is frustrating to my heart. I feel like Paul...the things I shouldn't do, I do, while the things that I should do, I don't.

Tonight, we had a sweet, intimate time of corporate prayer and worship at church. In one of the songs we sang, a particular verse stuck out. Though I've sung this song several times before, I had never heard this additional verse:

When I'm satisfied,

Oh, When I'm satisfied,

When I'm satisfied, give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus. You can have all this world;

Just give me Jesus.

Perhaps it's pathetically fundamental, but my heart needed to be reminded of my desperation and absolute need for Jesus...even when I'm not in "times of need". Maybe it'd be better to say especially when I don't consider myself to be in "times of need". That mentality, however, is not correct. I'm always in need. I can do nothing--absolute zilch--without Jesus.

I'm reminded of something I heard a man say today. While I can't remember his exact terminology, he said something to the effect of God anticipates the petitions of His people. This blows my mind. The Almighty wants to hear from us...from me. Who in the world do I think I am to have had a heart change and to know that change only took place by His grace, and then to not spend time with the Heart Surgeon? It's His heart. His heart now beats in my chest. This means that my desires are now capable of being His desires. Oh, that my flesh may die!